Built for the Valley

I'm coming to the other side of one of the most difficult years of my life and just when I thought it could only get better the unthinkable happens. As I write this 8 people sit in a room and play God for 75 people.... and I could be one of these 75. I don't know. No one knows. And not knowing is terrifying. But, I'm built for the valley. It's the valley that makes me who I am. The valley makes me more like Him and oh how I want to be more like Him. My life will be drastically interrupted if I lose my job, but my life is His to interrupt. And as nervous as it makes me the only thing I can do is trust in His perfect will for 75 people at this point in time. Whether I am one of them or not I will still ache for the lives that are about to be affected.

On my mind...

I've been reading a lot lately. These are some of the things on my mind...

The rigour of rejection leaves nothing but my Lord, and myself, and a forlorn hope.

You are not ripe yet, and if God had squeezed you the wine would have been remarkably bitter.

The test of our spiritual life is the power to descend. If we have the power to rise only, something is wrong.

We are built for the valley...spiritual selfishness always wants repeated moments on the mount.

We are apt to think that everything that happens to us is to be turned into useful teaching...it is to be turned into something better than teaching... it is to be turned into character.

I don't have peace because I figured it all out. I have peace because I have Christ.