NEXT YEAR
Next Year,
Things are gonna change,
Gonna drink less beer
And start all over again
Gonna read more books
Gonna keep up with the news
Gonna learn how to cook
And spend less money on shoes
Pay my bills on time
File my mail away, everyday
Only drink the finest wine
And call my Gran every Sunday
Resolutions
Well Baby they come and go
Will I do any of these things?
The answers probably no
But if there's one thing, I must do,
Despite my greatest fears
I'm gonna say to you
How I've felt all of these years
Next Year, Next Year, Next Year
I gonna tell you, how I feel
Once again I have referenced a song. I can't help it. Music moves me. I live better with music. Why a blog titled resolutions in April? Most people make resolutions at the dawn of a New Year. Me.... I made them last September. An inherent desire for change was so overwhelming it could no longer be ignored. Thus the birth of my "resolutions" in the Fall of 2008.... was it law I wait until January?
My growth as a person had been propitious. Far from perfect but consistent growth as an individual mentally and spiritually had been the pattern. However, my growth was being hindered and stunted to a degree by who I was on the outside. Had I known years ago what I know now I would have embraced change much sooner. But would I have appreciated or benefited as much? Most likely not, it was all in God's timing. While my mental and spiritual health were relatively great by any one's standards, my physical health was deteriorating. Many attempts had been made in the past to address this area of my life but all with fail. My failure could be attributed to many things: half-hearted attempts, lack of support, lack of inspiration. But those are excuses and I didn't have time for excuses any longer. I had to make resolve to do this on my own. Being on my own for the past 7 years may have helped me this time. I'm stronger and acclimated to only relying on one person... myself. So, it was up to me. If I failed- my fault. If I succeeded- it was my accomplishment.
As I sit here 6 months into my "new year" not only am I nearly 40 pounds lighter but I am a different person. I am a better version of me. The effects that this physical change has had on me mentally, emotionally, spiritually is extraordinary.
I'm not finished. I've not arrived. There is much more work to be done and this is on-going. This is my life and it will be habitual.
